my_blog

2006-03-17T19:14:00.000-08:00

I've got a new blog since this blog is like dying...
And a new url maybe good to signify a fresh new start of my life in blogging.

RageOfDarkness.blogspot

This used to be my own private diary blog, but then I changed the layout, deleted my posts, and gave it a fresh new look..

j-pop

2005-10-23T00:32:00.000-07:00

so long nv blogged liao. currently i am trying to expand my music to DAI, ELT, and boy bands if possible. Namie Amuro is okay, but some songs are a bit too dull for me. Ayu is much better. I recommand everyone to listen to Namie's Want me and Did U, they are really nice. esp want me's pv!

sucks lor

2005-10-11T03:56:00.000-07:00

i was happily playing aoeIII when my mum came back wif wx and she said "off that game now" she scared later wx will play also. aoeIII cannot save one lor. now i lost like 0.5hr of hardwork trying to make them produce food... haiz.

stupid lar. she said will sponser me buy mp3 player last time, which she hvnt mentioned anything yet.. even though i got hint hint... luckily i got savings to buy myself.

i buying jinny tt model, muvo2 FM... which is like S$239 according to the creative website. tt actual market price shld be around S$220.. there about.

i hv - S$170 savings now and 10 left to save
each day i can save $3

THEREFORE - i shld hv 200 bucks by nov hols. i can borrow a bit frm pur and charles though.

therefore - Mission COMPLETE/

p.s if mama wanna sponser tt her prob, i dun tink she would though, she hv broken one too many promises already.

end of exams and wep

2005-10-08T08:15:00.000-07:00

exams ending on MON, YAY!

i hate wep btw

I HATE WEP.

childREn's dAY sucks

2005-10-01T22:17:00.000-07:00

children day yesterday, the rc near my house hosted some bloody celebration thingy, really disgusting and noisy. i shall write a letter to tell not to hv this kind of thing nxt yr cuz it just disturbs my revision schedule nxt yr. lucky i dun hv o lvls but still its impt that i get overall A or else hci may not accept me.

exam

2005-09-30T05:11:00.000-07:00

exams start today and continues to nxt nxt mon. i rock. i hvnt study ss and chem yet. i tink i am the best slacker in my class. but i WILL work hard this weekend. maybe and most likely would.

so wad's the exam topic i did?

personal recount : nothing ventured and nothing gained.

tiannie was like " wah, sure fail" after the exam. she did quite well i tink, as in not really "li2 ti2", and her english is so much better than me.

my prose question b was like crap. i doubt that it was even 0.75 pages. i am so pathetic, cuz i ran out of time and even if i hv 1 hr to do tt question, i cant tink of anything to rite.

then paper 2 is like the author is crapping and moralizing abt evaluating cultures. bah. i disagree with the whole thing totally. cultures CANT be evaluated. Wakaru, Umbergo Eco???? Still muz make me do AQ on how to evaluate qn. i hate ip track when it comes to things like AQ an sia. but the o lvl track hv so much hw to do... and muz take the Os. oOoOoO.

langarts, is juz so dam so hard. (english is bad already, then still muz throw in lit and anyhow mix them)

i pity all those ip track pple sitting for the paper. maybe the O lvl pple and GEP got a harder one, but hey!

p.s i recently like boA a lot. she's quite nice. Girls on top (korean and chinese) (yea, she sings chinese too) and make a secret (jap) is quite cool. the mv is okay too.

special interest talk

2005-09-26T03:34:00.000-07:00

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in my sch, for ip track, there's such thing as an S.P talk, that takes place around 1115-1215 every mon of odd week, so enrich the sec 3 ip track pple. namely me and my peers.

some one decided to do a proj on peranakan culture and they kindly invited a speaker to give us a talk today. nothing wrong and totally understandable and innocent, rite?

wad happened was that most of us weren't giving him our full attention.

mrs chua scolded us. to summarize tt wad she said :

our behaviour is "disgusting".

we "will not walk out of nanyang" with this type of behaviour

"blatant disrepect and inconsideration"

"even a 3 yr old knows that when somebody is speaking, you jolly well don't speak."

"respect a speaker that your school has invited"

"the speaker didn't force himself to your school."

we do not know how to behave and to treat other people

tt's mostly wad i can remb, but you get the gists. btw "" stands for direct quotes.

i hv a lot to say of course, not all of them good. but due to the probability of my tchers reading this blog, i am not going to put them down.

but wad i wan to share is a hint my perspections, as a student, wad i tink. god, i sound like my v.p.

for starters, ask urself some questions.

1. are u willing to listen to a talk that you jolly well know that it won't be highly relevant in the near future and u hv a interest level ( on a scale of 1 to 10, with 10 being the highest) of 3?

2. whether we know how to treat and respect others is a diff matter, but do you tink we shld treat pple who had not earn our respect well? for me its, "if u wan my respect, earn it first".

i am not going to provide you any model answers for my questions, because there's no model answer.

of cuz, there's tt thing abt mr kuo and brittany ( the gep one). but i am not going to mention it, cuz its way too disgusting to mention that. it makes me wonder wad kind of sch is nanyang honestly. i dun wanna come to a tyrannical sch tt onli wants fame and glory and blatantly disregards for the students.

btw, for those who witness the incident, i hv one thing to say, mr kuo, in case u dunno, you cant take our dignity away. one's dignity is sacred, like chasteness and no one except urself cant take ur dignity away. so dun u mention abt taking other pple dignity away. our dignity is not for the likes of you to take away.

k, this is a pretty long entry, and mostly rambling. my impt point is the last pt, abt dignity, which i feel its impt.

EXAMS COMING>>> god. 4 more days

exam-stressed

2005-09-22T17:24:00.000-07:00

cant deny tt i am stresssed. esp with tiannie this kind of friend, everything study almost finish... scary sia. i spend an avg of 2hrs daily studying, wished tt i started earlier. this weekend muz pia and mug, wadeva u choose to call cooping @ ur room for hrs at a feeble attempt to study.

my physics SUCKS. my trig SUCKS. my bio SUCKS. other than tt, i "shld" be fine. as for ss, i shall juz read a couple of times thru, and leave it up to luck, fate, karma.

being in my sch tends to develop inferiority complex in most pple i tink.

suddenly mr chiam and mr ng, my new chem and math teacher is slightly more likeable, i tink i can live with them teaching me, since mr chiam has tried to treat us like non-retards and mr ng is kind of a 'pushover' and nice to bully sometimes.

tt's all for now, i guess.

p.s i suddenly developed a love for paine in ffX-2, she's so cool. not at all like rikki. yuna is passable though.

fucking bitch

2005-09-15T14:09:00.000-07:00

wed and thurs morning morning, this BLOODY FUCKY SUCKY ASSHOLE BITCH (aka ms tian or something like tt) come and stopped me for wearing jacket. She was like " Why are u wearing jacket?", so i said (auto reaction), "that it was cold", then " I dont think its very cold, so unless you are sick pls remove ur jacket", so i removed and walked away. FOR STARTERS, i dun gif a damn abt how cold she is, PEOPLE HV DIFFERENT DEFINITION of cold for goodness sake. And wad if i got sick and its approaching exams???

Then thurs the same, but i didnt take off the jacket juz said yes yes then walked away. Then ms rashidah called me and said tt the sch has passed some kind of rule theh NO JACKETS during flag raising for the sake of uniformity. That's so inhumane and selfish. Wad if pple get sick, are they going to compensate for their (and my)health? Hell, no, comprosing students health for their own foolish ideas is selfish and irresponsible. I hope mdm mak stops this law frm being passed down.

anyway, ms rashidah said tt its NOT OFFICIAL yet, so by rite ms tian or wadever cant stopped me and say "I will have to refer you to ur dhol or hols". unbelievably unreasonable and bloodily cocky of her to say so.

anyway,i wont be wearing a jacket today, not becuz i am scared, but i hv NO INTENTION of being stop by the BLOODY FUCKY SUCKY ASSHOLE BITCH and be late for flag raising. I HATE HER, i shall send her a hate note if possible nxt teachers' day or something. :) but she's a dean, so i doubt she's has a pigeon hole for me to stuff cute cards with "I HATE YOU".

2005-09-14T03:21:00.000-07:00

mum's pissed. (i am not going to elaborate) i am kind of behind my work schedule for revision... somewhere stuck in cells for biology. see i can improve tt. i tink i cant study for too long, but today GOT to finish cells, enzymes. so i am going to start by studying 9-11.30 today, with a 10min break at 10.15, shld be survivable. so i shld clock about 2h today, and then i will wake up at 4.30 today, and study, so i shld clock another 1hr. if i cant finish my cells and enzymes, then i take tomolo's lunch to compensate for it. cells shld take abt 1hr if study really hard and then enzymes abt 1hr...

so tt's how i tink my life gonna be frm today until the big countdown. hectic yet organised. :(

holidays ending

2005-09-10T14:57:00.001-07:00

todae is the last day of sept hols, so sad. recently i was quite hooked to FY, but the ending for FY was quite cruel n sad, like everyone died, xcept tamahome, chichiri and tasuki. now i am quite "onto" bleach. haiz. my house is in a total mess, cuz my mum havent been cleaning it for nearly A WEEK. no wonder my house is like a pigsty now.

i hv a math test on tues on trig, but i am totally unprepared for it. trig is juz not my cup of tea, even as i stare at a qn for the fourth times, for more than 3hrs, i still hv not IDEA how to solve it. i muz be a moron.

i am quiting piano now, stuck at grade 4, so pathetic. i dun tink i am a perservering person after all. i quited 3-4yrs ago, at grade 1 and relearnt (started frm basics at sec 1). so pek-ceh.

tt's all i tink, for now...

post

2005-09-08T00:46:00.000-07:00

k, my sis dunno dl wad crap virus and caused my pc to lag like hell, keep popping up rubbish (sex, cacinos), so i gave her norton internet security. then she changed me to limited acc while i was slping. i changed myself back and changed her into limited acc, simple and ez like tt.

she uninstalled maple, so i am going reinstalled maple... sianz hv to redl. if she do this again i WILL blog friendster, blogspot and msn messenger. if push comes to shove, i am not going to LOSE.

post

2005-09-04T02:04:00.000-07:00

. holiday. sun. mum & dad quarreling. abt money. so its like "ningxin, y u dun wan to teach weixuan, if u teach we dun hv to pay so much money to tutor him" pls. u asked for it. weixuan wont not fail his exams if u leave him alone. it is my mum who gif my bro high standards, if u leave my brother alone i dun tink he will fail or anything. he will juz be a bit lousier onli.

and the piano thingy. old story.

my family seems to hv a lot of problems lately. fanancial problems. my mum might not be able to support my piano fees and tuition fees together. so either we stop piano or we tutor weixuan.

i am still deciding between the two.

WEP

2005-09-01T21:48:00.000-07:00

i got into childcare service in eunos for wep. pay = 0. this is gonna be fun.

I REFUSE to GO.

but I WILL GO, at least for 2 times.

end of story.

2005-08-28T01:49:00.000-07:00

sunday today. last weekend b4 holidays. poor thing. holiday got a lot of lessons. monday got bio... for 3-4hrs. then got math for 5hrs (total). i dunno la. keep getting scolded for waking up. bah. she banned maple from me. so i got NOTHING to lose if she caught me, except utopia, but the age is ending, may as well. piano is catching up at me. the songs really sucks and they are so dam hard to master.

basically, i cant do the thing i enjoy most. playing computer.uhm. i am no loser when it boils down. if mum wans to play with me, i am game.

yet another updates.

2005-08-23T04:30:00.000-07:00

cant find a blogskin for me... i tink i make my own better, maybe ayumi based plus a grey color scheme. like my inuyasha personal blog/.. :)

see first la.

today i am at sch again, i nearly died today frm mr chiam. he called me twice... wads his FUCKING PROBLEM w/ tt??? he hv a pervision for the no. 5???? and then i was slping when he called me for the 2nd time??? WAD's UP WIF TT? its not like me to fall aslp during chem lessons, blame it on ur boring lessons. pls for our sake u spice up ur lessons a bit... not by rubbish quiz but by useful, summaried information n examples tt actually will come out for exams.. not

NaCL --> Na + Cl
Na is oxidised.

we learnt abt heart during bio, the cardiac system, later i go home study and brush up a bit. bio is the BEST science... ever. at least its less sucky tt phy and chem.

i am at cca now, cuz i muz show my face like once every wk and i hv been attending cca for like 2.5weeks, due to some crap lecture and newater trips etc etc.

tt's all for now, later go home can update more more more!

2005-08-22T05:58:00.000-07:00

my sis SKIPPED sch today as she got function crap. she is A WELFARE COUCILLOR AND she can SKIP sch???? where got such thing? i normal student my mum dun even allow me to skip cross country... i so UNlucky. got this kind of mama. i got mdm low to endorse my piano, later i somehow force mama to sign my physical acitivites, or daddy will do. haha.tomolo i force daddy to write something like, ningxin have shown interest in swimming but she nids to practise more to improve her style. she has improved over the 2 months swimming. something to tt extent. haha. daddy dun care anyway. the teachers dun care as long u gif them a signature and some crap reflections, isnt it? i feel some dao mei, go ip then got to do all this crap like sia and nyaa, normal pple dunnid to do such rubbish.

btw, last fri we disected something called the mammalian heart (aka pig heart), quite fun, but the blood clots were GROSS, luckily, aft u rinse all the stuff and cut the fats away the heart is okay --> juz like a lump of cardiac muscle it is supposed to be... clean and ez to cut once u noe how to use the knife....

my god, i tink i like disecting pig hearts, juz like bali in the fma, haha. but nxt yr got pig eye to disect, i may faint... eww, tissue fluid in the pig eye. major er!

i am playing utopia and maple this few days, quite fun, but now is wx exam period, so cant play much.... SAD. :(. actually no, cuz normally i dun get to play much, i always wake up myself (w/o alarm clock) at 4am. haiz. later i slp earlier then see can wake at 2-3am or not. maple: lvl 44 cleric. utopia: n/w 300k.

i guess i am the computer nerd type... i dun really like games a lot. esp volleyball. speaking of volleyball, there's assessment tomolo and i am going to flunk it like last week. last week is hitting the ball back and i scored 2-4/30. i am so proud of my results. see i can pong this time assessment, cuz like i will make any diff if i go take the test. i prepare to fail liao.

kk... this is one of my longest blog entry, cuz i hvnt updated in a long time. i am going to change my layout soon, maybe like my dairy blog. my diary blog is so much updated and nicer then this public blog lol. cuz its personal, and private.

*personal part of public blog*

sometimes i feel so dam lost, it is like i noe wad i muz do, study and everything, but i cant refrain myself frm doing stuff tt i shldnt. i nid motivation, but i cant find it. i tried this life strategies for teens book, but wad;s inside is almost everything i noe and it doesnt help. i feel so dam lost and drifting cuz i cant find an anchor and tt all my grades are slipping.

i tink i will force myself to study frm sept for the finals anyway. i dun get the pt of studying though.... i study so much for phys. for bio. but wad do i get in return? barely passes. not even B. maybe if for once i study and i get good marks i will find the movitiation.. the thing i am looking for to spark me up.

doushite watashi jya nai no?- ayumi's is this love

sab week

2005-07-26T00:01:00.000-07:00

this week's sabbiticals week, which sucks, unlike last term. This time we are doing environmnental science, yesterday talk abt wad water parameters... anyway, its super boring. i keep falling aslp yesterday morning. today worse, i fall aslp fr morning to aftnn. sucks rite. there was this part of bioremediation where i slp for 30min!!!.. can imagine how boriing it is...

haiz REALLy looking forward tomolo. like real.

foa celebrations

2005-07-14T23:53:00.000-07:00

today is foa celebrations, so no school but got to go to school. me and tiannie went with carolyn, xianhuan, kaiteng, alicia... we watch the movie, wif me as the onli who understand the movie , (which is a jap animation but quite lame). then we went to play hopscotch.. at first we kind of dunno the rules and how to play, then we sorta got the rules correct. uhmm. we went to play cards, and we used the snap cards to play the puzzle for 5 mins then we got to go. then is mass dance, some girls for 412 taught us a idiotic dance and then the theathre ppls taught us mulan self def moves.

bored

2005-07-06T21:08:00.000-07:00

blogging again... currently in lab 2 researching for langarts sia, sucks. although i am doing langauge arts sia, i am actually tinking for bio sia...juz send peixi a email, i nid her to design the website in paper so that i can digitally create it and actionscript it. Okay, here's some pic of ayumi:

haiz

2005-07-06T05:23:00.000-07:00

so here's my update:

i missed cip today... coz i was busy filing bio stuff and filling the content page... sighz
i didnt hand in compo - cant finish (its 0.45% done)
i gotta do sihan later... shouldnt be a problem
that's all...

oh ya, this few weeks i am kind of into playing maplestory (sea) so i tink i will juz create a temperory page for maplesea updates and stuff about my character.. Should be quite fun!

new layout

2005-07-05T06:32:00.000-07:00

hey... i noe i hv been neglecting my blog for months... i am sry! BUT my blog is up again, with the new layout and midi voyage. nothing happening at school, the same old stuff:- me lagging at maths and physics, sia all undone, etc etc. Today during sia period meiyin and peixi ask me to go comp lab to do sia stuff, which is to print out our report... And then they said something about doing bio sia, but peixi went to play minesweeper and blogging.... So i left them playing to go check my crystals and they like give me funny looks. ????

now listening to ayu's VOYAGE:- I recommand this song and nice romantic pv to everyone....

here's a link of voyage mp3 : http://12.22.230.41/MicroTech/Hosted/Files/ayumi/AVCD-17239_13.zip

i tink i will upload some pics from my collection of ayu on friday....

stressed

2005-05-05T08:50:00.000-07:00

many days since i hv updated my blog... let's see... todae is my new PC one week old day. It;s a HP Pavillion with 512MB RAM, 3.0 processor, 19 inch LCD monitor beauty... I love it so much...! Flunked physics for sure, totally cant do wavefronts and lenses. Bio may have some hope, i am rather good at bullshiting. CRS tomolo, fat chance to get A. MATHS TEST tomolo!! Study some already... Not bad, but can't rem the formulas.... Study harder man.

HW I owe
Compo
CME SIA
CL SIA
SS SIA
CHEM SIA JOURNAL

sucks leh....

MY STORY

2005-03-25T20:33:00.000-08:00

i wrote this little poem:-

MY STORY

in the crowd i blend,
unnoticed, the unoticable.
WALKING PROUD on a WINDING ROAD,
i am sick of this.

once i found escape in tears,
but i realised that cowardice was not an option.
i been through HOPE OR PAIN,
and i wondered what is my HAPPY ENDING.

in silence i wake,
from a echoing dream of CAROLS.
shadows and darkness is,
my casket and shroud,

this GAME is getting boring;
many MOMENTS of life and death i have seen.
i've been to reality and escaped to WONDERLAND,
sometimes i wish for ignorance.

HONEY, i confess.
many fools are tried to INSPIRE me,
often in my head,
i see KALEIDOSCOPE.

HUMMING 7/4 in my ears,
i see the CATCHER IN THE LIGHT.
you think i am mad?
but this is ABOUT YOU.

i am blood and flesh,
yet my existence is a LIAR.
MY NAME'S WOMAN you hear?
none could REPLACE me.

Nothing touches my heart,
Inside my mind i writhe.
Nobody friend i will be,
Gone with the wind without a goodbye...

Xenophobia and
Ignorance is bliss remember this,
Never again i would,
reopen these wounds.

**//ayumi fans will notice something abt my poem//**

obs back

2005-03-11T22:18:00.000-08:00

juz got back from obs. cool place. not at all frightening. best of all instructor (connel) nv force pple to play high elements. veri cool. lots of kayaking and h2O related activites.

here's wad i did for the past week
mon:
prep intro talk
grp into watches ( i m magellan)
inventory check
tent pitching
harness learning
belaying course

tues
hike w/ big backpack to camp 1 ( from camp 2) which is the residental place. camp 1 veri slack and relaxed
sent backpack on a boat to new campsite ( about 2 km away). kayak to new campsite.
pitch tent in new campsite
dinner
sleep

wed
kayak from 0630 to new campsite through 1km of sea, 3+ km of river, 200m of sea again. muz qucikly kayak or else when tide falls we will be stuck in the river mud.... magellan was fast, nv kanna stuck, we took 4-5 hr while others took 5-6 hr.
pitch tent
build raft (magellan raft was the only 1 raft out of 4 raft tt didnt sink) rewarded by instructor to jump into quarry.
sweet rinse in quarry (p.s we havent bath since tues n there was a lot of sand and salt on our body... u can imagine how happy r we when connell said tt we can go quarry swimming
dinner n sleep

thur
woke up to find millions of ants in bags n mass tins ( our dinner bowl cum plate) esp. yantian's masstin got lyk hundreds of ants
found out tt my poncho is also covered by ants
wasted lots of insecticide (aka insect repellent) by dousing our bag wif it
hike to camp 2. about 1.5+km. (i m kind of good at long dist hikes coz thats wad i do every 3.2km cross country) poor lijie had to carry 2 tents ( 8++kg each) and her huijuns backbag (abt 10kg) . huijun swop stuff wif her coz she veri scared of ants but she only carried one tent when she is supposed to carry 3 tents. poor poor lijie. i wish i could help but.... audrey also had to carry one tent, her own backpack and a jerry can tt weigh abt 5kg. poor audrey.
**** acutally i kind of admire lijie n audrey coz they r damn strong, both fr track. their boy are more packed wif muscles then most chinese high boys****
flying fox ( i was the rope(wo)man coz i didnt dare to climb up the tower (which is 15m tall)
rock climbing and some abseiling ( i skipped tt as well)
pitch tent
dinner
pack bag
sleep

fri
oh no!!! lost 6 bottles, 1 bottle cap, 3 pegs, n trowel
scavenger hunt ( we found out tt magellan have one extra set of pegs so instead of losing pegs we have 13 extra pegs)
found 4 bottles ( one w/o cap n stopper) and i bottle cap while walking (we kind of juz stole them, u know juz take fr the ground)
found a scrub and some other tings tt we wanted trade ( black market was blooming, lots of watches traded stuff)
gep pple from tenzing came wif a trowel n ask to trade for pegs but we had GAVE THEM away
gep pple refused to gave us the trowel but relented after a while coz our watch is the only one tt lost a trowel
soverniers shoppg. i bought a tank, a collar pin and together wif audrey i got a poster foc. audrey got one too, but hers was slightly torn. (i feel real bad)
reflectn time (connell ask us to talk abt fruit symbolizatn of obs) then we each drew a pic for him as sorveneir
set off for jetty and board a boat to mainland ( sayonara palau ubin, sayonara obs, sayonara connell)
took scholl shuttle bus to school
took 67 home

END

violent gal

2005-03-05T14:17:00.000-08:00

i m sorta getting a bit violent and i stole some biscuits from mum ( veggie biscuits but....) , i really dun wanna starve in obs. i am trying to get my comp to work by violently grabbing the monitor and banging it against the comp table. strong lei coz my monitor is those very gigantic ones, about 10kg and i was like raising it and violently hitting it wif my lib book.

i am so pathetic, my monitor keeps going into pink mode as in the whole screen is semi-pink and it makes my bloof boil coz my anti-pink policy and it makes really fanfics really difficult.

well, i juz asked dad to buy the fire starter, dun ask me wads a fire starter, i suppose its for cooking. i hope we get to eat really yucky food, lyk rabbit meat... mostly lykly we get to cook maggie mee. so much for the 350 buck camp fee.

obs coming

2005-03-03T23:02:00.000-08:00

obs are coming!!!! todae is last day of term 1...... i hate obs. i m going to bring lots of food there, obs pple probably abuse students. they will force us to eat self cooked maggie noodles and it's not filling enough............ i going to buy as much biscuits, (nuitrious ones) and bring the whole of them there. i dun care whether its gg to be confiscated. i can do what i one coz i am responsible for myselfz. look @ wat happened to the 3 hwa chong boy yesterday. they faint during a marathon!!!! is hci taking responsible for these 3 boys hu r in hospitals now?????? no way!

i am not gg to end up in a hospital juz becoz obs starve me and let me do strenuous stuff.

after all my life is mine.

i still got chem jw, chem ws to do, how???????

still hv to do comic, damn it!!!

hai

2005-03-02T20:35:00.000-08:00

juz got phy test. lyk sh*t. i suck at phy, n i only taking it coz i may become engineer lyk my friends fathers and mothers. mirrors are cool but they sort of collide wif chemistry quantum mechanics theory and the wavelength thing. in chem we learn tt atoms releasing light when when electrons lose energy and moves from higher quantum shell to lower quantum shell. so why is there reflection if light is given out by electrons?????/

maybe this reflection wif qmt is a - lvl. after all qmt is a-lvl. CANT THEY JUZ STICK TO O LVL??????

tcher blabbering abt what graph thing. really sucked. i was spacing out and i cant understand anything now. n i thought coodinate geometry was bad.......... i really sucks @ math.............

short blog

2005-03-01T00:38:00.000-08:00

nthg to do. cca now. so i blog. i feel so bored. i am dlg ayu's evolution pv, i dled her ourselves pv juz now. fantastic. she so totally rocks.

oh, for anyone reading my stupid blog, do you wanna know anything abt bio, or can propose some prob. in bio. eg. which detergent best to remove lipids.

my god, i havent started on my bio sia, better start npw. pls tag if u haf any ideas for me.

domo arigato.

sucki day again

2005-02-28T20:42:00.000-08:00

broke my testtube in bio! realli sucks. ms lee was looking @ me lyk i am a bug she wanna squash. i messed up and srewed up my exp, gotta read my txtbk to fake some results. i m good at science theory but sucki @ practical. for the past two years i mostly have been faking my results. the electricity ones i juz used the formula wifout doing the exp.

i feel real bad.

nvmind, later got mr ingham lesson, then sia. i tink i am going to do chem wif shiying n xinyi.

downloading ourselves now, later download evolution.

uwc std, life skill camp self-help

2005-02-28T04:36:00.000-08:00

uwc pple came, 1 canadian, 1 welsh1 1 aussie. canadian quite pretty. guys in uwc --> so, so. one quite shuai, but dun look friendly, lyk bite me attitude. overall not very cool coz it took up my phy lesson n theres test, so i missed some prts abt total internal reflection and the critical angle thing. sucks. there r quite cool, but i didnt get to speak to them a lot. the canadian and aussie tought us some french :

j'adore tu --> kimi o ai shiteru
je' desteste tu --> i hate u
toilette--> toilet
au revoir--> bye
bonjour-->hello
femme ? --> girl

and some aussie slangs
dunny--> toilet
sheila--> girl/woman
mate--> fren

i cant rem, but tts the gist.

obs coming! how???

i guess i m going to fake something, my fav. i m good @ acting, bloodily good @ it, shouldnt waste my talent.

maybe i can fake my period? better still if trainer is male. i can pretend to haf a cold otherwise. daijoubu, i rock @ this. i will suddenly contract a nasty cold and haf a nasty tendercy to faint. so no tight rope walking. ha.

i hope i m in residental state. i, chiew ning xin, now solemnly swear with the promise of the firefly jp, tt i will strongly and give all my best to protest against tight-roping. i will not do tipe-roping if i can help it.

daijoubu... god will bless me.

hai! no hw weekend!

2005-02-25T14:45:00.000-08:00

this week we have totally no hw (xcept bio, which i did during cca, so convienent... and physics sia). no math, no langarts, no hcl, no chem, no nothing!!! totally rock my weekend. nxt wk the last week of school, then got obs. god bless me, according to my mum, i have insurance but i dun want to end up dead. i haf no intention on walking on ropes or wires in the air and no one is gg to make me do it. if necessary, i ll feign sick. last yr camp was so freaky, i freaked, and yelled at the instructor and ........... embarassing. this yr, i wont ( i guess so, i m kind of unpredictable). i will jetty jump, even abseil, rock climb, slp in tents, anything, shower in toilets tts doorless, anything, everything, but not heights. i ll canoe 4 12hrs w/o complaining and hold my bladder for 12 hrs.

if need be, i shall exercise my rights as a citizen of a democratic nation. i am entitled to live, no one can make me kill myself.

sometimes i m veri weird. but........ thats me.

i watched howls moving castle 4 2nd time. still rocks. animation is great!

howl's moving castle rocks

2005-02-22T18:29:00.000-08:00

it rocks! i juz watched it yesterday during cca. i like howl, he is SO CUTE. but i think haku (in Sen to chihiro no kamikakushi) more shuai. i veri 'small woman' rite, but they r really cute. chi do chihiro is created by the same pple who created howl movin castle. both of them ( the male hero) looks so cute, but haku has a deeper personality and more enigmatic ( i tink), howl is very handsome and childish, but powerful. and i lyk the part abt exchanging his kokoro (heart) for magic. both animation nice, (japan prodcut wah), but howl plot more centred on hero while chihiro is much more heroine (chihiro/sen). i love both of them ( i tink more than ichijouji and minamoto-san). i dunno why i m so in love wif japan anime, but tts me. i love all japan anime, pokemon, ygo, digimon!, fullmetal alchemist, gundam series, naruto, innuyasha, every heart. i realized in j-anime, every hero is cute (xcept one piece)!! and every1 is nice. so i can fall in love in them wif peace, coz they wont cheat my feelings or betray mi love. plus the added benefit tt they r fictional.

enough rambling. today i got peer tutoring again, peixi and meiyin wanna skip, but i dun wan let them skip coz moral courage n all tt crap. i dunno, later will get bio test back. btw did i mentioned tt i got 66% for math??? i rock! coz i m above average (31+0.1++). haha. i studied i wanna cry during cny, better not fail!

i tink bio i will get about 65-70% hey, the test may be hard but i did study and did all the o lvl paper ( i m tested on a lvl but....). chem so chim, force us learn a lvl stuff, we only sec 3, for god sake!! BLESS ME.

i still dun understand the quantum mechanic theory, somebdy teach me???

slaking @ home

2005-02-19T01:02:00.000-08:00

math over, nothing to study. physics? too easy... chinese? tomorrow, coz i ll forget if i study now anyway.....

i tink i got physics assignment, see i can do or not, and nth else, yippeee!

my sis wanna watch constantine w/ mi, but i not very free coz i got cca and stuff. maybe i drag a friend to watch??????????? maybe, i dun watch. my sis frenz (hu has crush on my sis) is gonna lend us HOWL'S CASTLE, he so totally rocks! howls castle is in jap but there are english subtitles, so cool!!! **Jap Animes rocks**

nothing to do at home, so i m changing my stupid blog layout now, see if any ncie skin. my mum dun want me to quit tuition but i wanna quit coz friday is my favourite day n i dun want anything spoilg it. mr wee changed the time, now 830 on friday or 10am on sat. i chose sat coz no sane pple (to me) study on sat morning, tts plain stupid. anyway i want to watch gundam seed too.

gundam seed today rocks! i wasnt watching 100% of the time coz my mum was talking but i got the gist. its lyk Ethan is going to talk to his dad and than his dad got angry and wanted to execute or arrest enthan, than larkus stepped in w/ her men and rescued enthan. enthan arm was injured by a gunshot?? anyway, larkcus finally reunite w/ kira and they hug and kiss. the fighting part was nice, but today espisode has way too much pathos. i prefer logos but gundam seed... cagalli was so cute today, hugging enthan in her army colour suit (not the commander suit, the normal one). today episode has a lot of emotions, coz enthan may get killed and then the justice gundam may be captured, so enthan has to travel in a earth jet with kira escorting him...

gundam seed is more lyk a gul anime, although got fighting scenes. i lyk it.

math test finally over

2005-02-17T23:18:00.000-08:00

mth finally over. i think i probably get a juz pass or border fail. this sucks so much. the last qn very ironic, dunno whether a is positive or negative. my frenz all got -a but the gph is supposed to haf a min pt????

my ans i tink all half wrong. hui fang was correct, it was damn tedious. i knew i can do everything correct if only i have 30min more.

my heart is veri heavy now, i feel lyk screaming to everyone and swearing to mr ingham who said the test was relatively ez. i guess tts the after effect of too much adrenline in system. during the test i was more panaroid than during the whole psle add together.

compared to this stupid test, i ll take psle anytime. at least i was pretty confident (actually cocky) in passing in psle. nvmind. can i juz collaspe and cry and yell at the computer? no, coz i m havg cca now.

later got stupid math tuition, havent i enough math????? i tink i ask mr wee how to do the last qn of test. see i got correct or not. at least partly right. coz its 7 mks.

ourselves is very good, dunno whether theres anymore ayu songs like this around?????

contd

this guy and girl came to present (advertise) abt this product tt can do 3d animatn. its pretty decent but i tink kind of hard to use, the interface is pretty ugly too. very grayish. during the presenting, the guy keeps looking at the screen, no eye contact @ all. overall presentation poor. will nv pass for ss presentatn.

p.s i m drowing my sorrow in ourselves now.

tired

2005-02-16T22:54:00.000-08:00

i m pretty exxhausted now. juz finished school. i m staying to complete my moe excel logo design. i think its due tom. math tom. ez. study or no study still will fail. what's the pt?

today bio sucked. i dun think i'll fail, upon 50 1 will get abt 35? i am hoping for 40 but.... there is a 1 X 10^-10000000000000000000000000000 chance i will get tt. should study harder. if i didnt get a i will really bleed inside my heart. i studied so much, everybody watching tv during renuion night i was reading Introductn to Advanced Bio, better not fail.

i think i am going to look for a chinese tutor, my chinese sucko. my chinese tcher suuuuuucked, tt stupid idiot baka. if i din get a for my tue chinese test, i really going to get one!

today veri tired. muz rerite langangue arts proposal, ours rej. i tink we juz reuse our ss one. abt the same anyway.

finally burned ourselves in cda format. i am so going to blast my ears with it later while studyg.

test ! help

2005-02-16T19:37:00.000-08:00

bios killing me. i haf bio mental block. cant seem to remember anything abt mitochodrion and golgi appartus. today this sec 4 gulz (taking triple science) told me tt bio syllubas and chem is crap. ya, right, she cant go to hell and rot. she say a hydorgen ion should be juz a proton, not a ion. but she forgot the atomic subshells. orbitals. she nv learn properly than stop talking crap la.
she say bio is trying to learn everything under the sun but not learning anything in specific. aiya, those in specific learn during uni. if they spent 2 yr teach you everything abt enzymes, activation energy and how enzyme works, then u only know abt enzymes and nothing abt meiosis or mitosis, or dna replication or tRna, mRna, Rna, microorganisms, lipids, proteins, gametes, phagocytosis, pincytosis, facillated difusion membrane transport.

useless gal. sec 4 even more. even i sec3 know why they want to teach us some of everything. so we have more general knowledge, lyk how meiosis work, how fluid is transported through the semi-permeable membrane, which is bilayer and made up of hydrophilic and hydrophobic phospholipid molecules. she so stupid.

juz came home. my leg burning with grass cuts and poison thorns. i walked through this 500m long grass patch, which has more mimosa than grass. then some poisonous insect gave me a bite on my arm, still reddish. i juz applied aloe vera gel, but still painful. got some long scratches.

actually, we can opt for teaching in aligican high, my sis school, then i dun have to go all the way to Chinese gdn to yuhua to teach. but anglican rejected us. my mum say anglican students very smart dun need ooutside help. why cant they ask us teach bedok green or bedok view or pingyi, so many schools near bedok?????????????

i didnt get to revise much on the 21/2 hours ride home coz i fall asleep halfway. my bio how???

i finished enzymes (smart lei, i study during cny), but i cant remb organells in cells. that was sec 1 syllabus. i shouldnt forgot endoplasmic reticulum aft all my sec 1 study.

hai *sigh*.

bio rocks, but a lot of mermorizing stuff.

btw, my sis piano playing is killing me even though i m blasting wif my headphones full vol.

hamasaki ayumi's ourselves pv and song so totally rocks!!!

luv it! luv hamasaki ayumi too!

okie.. muz study.... mitochondria has matrix, double membrane, golgi apparatus has vesicles pinched off..........................

arghhhh

i should need to STUDY FOR BIO.

i nv did tt, and i always get straight As.

but i m not too sure now............

here smth

2005-02-15T20:48:00.000-08:00

i crap too much recently. juz realised. here's today stuff.

ANNI came back. Finally. i tink we all miss her, esp gen.

she almt broke her leg, there's a cut. she fall over a mysterious smth and tt what's happened. she refused to say. she act got 5 days off, but it was during the cny days, so sad.

she cant pe though, jinny cant too cause she lyk fall and parents wrote a letter.

i found out tt jinny's mum is a principal of sec sch! woow! her dad is the head of department in a big office, so rich!

dalphane mum is a mp. worse

whats up, why pple fr my class family bkgd so good.

my dad is a poor man who didnt finshed sec school

my mam got only 6 credits for a malaysia o levels

omg.

i wont feel inferior. i wont. wont!

so sad.

i got peer tutoring today, dunno have to tutor some idiots, (no offence), sec 2 stuff. i wonder how to pass psle if they dun even know wat's half of half kg??????

pple nowadays.

so fail them.....

no...................... i dun mean it.....................

if they all fail who i tutor?

why do i get cip for nyaa?

how i get promoted............?

no they so shouldnt fail.....................

am i bad?

no////...............

////i am juz evil//////////

god bless me

sucki day

2005-02-14T20:27:00.000-08:00

CHinese tcher sux. she cant teach, she cant do anything and she expect us to listen to her. hello????

this is so UNbeLIevAble

she cannot teach compo, grades us for spelling, she keeps taking abt what wu yan que qu and what the hell. u can go to hell.

nowadays juniors becoming more arrogance, esp sec1. they are juz a batch of ignorant fools who dont even understand quadratics equation. nv respect seniors. i have to tell this sec 2 not to eat in complab twice before she listen. hello, my cca room will stink okay. she can go eat her shit at home.

didnt bring specs, cant focus in lessons, even bio lessons are sleepy. should nv happen but...

chem test got 32/45. so low, all because of tt cao jinghua. stupid. i should have gotten like 40. i veri greedy coz i always fail eoy chem.

bio test coming, dun care. dun wanna study.

math test coming. sigh!

{the following part are rubbish}

today i wanna skip cca so i can go study wif mei2 and px.

but cannot

against scho rules

later tcher scold

why i m so cowardy

dunno

school tcher always threaten us

i dun dare to oppose the sch

now link to moe

will get criminal record

die...

should

shouldnt

crap

I HATTA SCHOOL

* i love school actually --------------------------> during holidays

overdue update

2005-02-14T12:44:00.000-08:00

this few days sucked. first i missed Dgmn tamer, pokemon, ppgals on Sat (lucky i didnt miss Gundam Seed & Disney House of Mouse). then i found out tt my math sucked, i was totally stumped on qn 5 of the mock test. then its lyk my osmosis and diffusion is horrible, same as last yr. i am supposed to know how to explain pressure potential and solution potential, which i still cant. i still cannot remember what protease and lipase does and ugggh!

tdy is VALENTINE'S DAy and although my sis did bought a gift for her senior bf, she woke up at 4.00++ to bake cookies for him. she was so noisy and her bloody alarm clock made me cant sleep. so damn, one day i am go and scold joey (her going to be official bf).

later got piano, hvnt practise yet, the tcher veri niao, everytime threaten to not let me take the practical exam. as if i scared la. i sec THREE already lol, not so easy to intimidate. worst come change tcher lol, its not i lyk like u.

if she threaten me again, i am going to tell me mum, i put up wif her for too long, she think she can juz bully me nonstop izit? she everything verbal abuse me, tt idiot mdm low.

hmm, i wonder what's joey giving my sis. i heard its a 50 buck necklace. god bless joey, he muz really love my sis if hes willg to spent so much on my sisi.

to those reading this, HAPPY VALENTINE DAY!

cny roxs

2005-02-10T21:07:00.000-08:00

i dun want to crap so i juz summarized wat happened yesterday.

a) sat in rocky bumpy scary bus in malaysia
b) reached kota tinggi (my dead gram house)
c) got angpaos
d) played poker won 7rm
e) dropped wallet into toilet bowl coz op skirt pkt too shallow
f) went to 2nd uncle house
g) ate dinner (more lyk feast), oishii ne!
h) 2 nd uncle lighted 2 firecrackers (real ones, lyk those in chinatown only that the one he lighted was lyk 3 m high)
i) kids (me, zhi xin (my sis), huiyan, huixin jinjie, minmin, xueli, weiliang, wei xuan (my bro))played with the smaller version firecrackers.
j) stared with the shooting spars cane (juz light the wick and point it towards the sky). sparks shot about 20m into the air. fun but ez.
k) ziyu (my 4 yrs old cousin) and chenyi (my four years old niece) joined in the fun. kawaii ne!
l) played mini friecrackers (light wick and throw onto the grd where it will explode into beautiful sparks)
m) played rocket sticks (light wick and will shoot into the air and explode into sparks). very fun
n) round up, finish the rest of the sparklers.
o) lau "yu sheng". heehee, its not really yu sheng coz the only fish is the satay fish. weird taste but fun.
p) gambling, play poker in cousin ah-laing's room.
q) kiss zi yu goodbye, cousin huijie giving us a ride to customs
r) finally arrive at singapore,
s) stopped by custom officier for carrying alcoholic drinks (4 cans of anglica shandy)
t) another officer said that the shandy dun contain a lot of alcohol so we dun have to pay taxes
u) took taxi and went home ( about 12.30 am)
v) ate instant noodles and watched tv
w) sweet dreams after a long day.

sleep well good dreams

2005-02-08T01:42:00.000-08:00

i juz woke up from my cny nap. i came home @ abt 112.30 then i ate instant noodels and slept until juz now. dunno y i'm so tired. now i gotta revise bio, then math, so sian.

2dae cn performance not very fantastic, last yr i think it's better. but we got chinese and modern dance, chinese orch, and npcc lion dance to perform. the chinese dance is cool, but then they all wear like can see belly button and then some of them is kind if bui bui (fat), so not very nice. modern dance is cool, but te ending too loooooog-winded. this year there are guests fr the lion befrienders and we were all squashed in the hall.

hui chun (writing couplets) was so screwed. i dunno how i write until so ugly, last yr much nicer. i think mun gonna hang my on the wall, but i havent let her see my hideous creation. i think she'll faint.

happy chinese new year to all chinese reading this and happy holidays to everyone. rem. to study for ur tests.

tired...beat..sleepyz

2005-02-07T20:16:00.000-08:00

i am sooo sleep and hungry. i juz came home and i didnt eat anything at both recesses. i was buzy doing uncompleted hw, i was like so beweildered by the physics hw, but then later anni, peixi lyk taught me. i still quite confused, but i dun think i need remedial. i juz need more practices. then math i didnt bring my draft, e one i did during my tuition. (hee, i managed to do all of them WHILE listening the tcher). got to redo, took me 1hr. in e end, i went home at 5.30pm. now i m so so tired.

tom is cny eve! later i better practise my chinese calligraphy or else i cant write tom. better start practising now coz i wanna sleep earlier later.

i wanna cry

2005-02-06T08:45:00.000-08:00

i dunno how to physics! i am such a failure... should have chose history. i suck. i am lousy. i wanna cry. i cant do my hw, i dunno how, i am stupid, the tcher is stupid. i dunno anything. i juz want to sleep!!!!!!!!!

i m sick. i m down wif flu. i cant take cold drinks in cny. i wanna cry. i hv to see the doctor. i have to pay for the doc fees. i am broke. i can't buy ayu's new album. i am sad. depressed. i juz want to lose myself in ayu and avril music.

pathetic. i juz want to cry.

fifth entry

2005-02-05T20:08:00.000-08:00

cny comin, hw and lot of crap still havnt do. the cme sia tt was due ages ago still havent do, guess why? e cme tcher didnt inform us chem test is brought forward 1 day. then i nv study, got to sit another more hard test. whose fault? bloody cme tcher, actually i wanna do cme sia nicely coz i thought she is veri nice. but nvmind. i probably get like 60% for chem. sucks rite. no time to do my blog coz i got to do math. veri hard, quadratic functions. some i still dunno how to do, especially the discrimnant part. lye when i use the general formula and when i use the discrimant thing. i am scraping math but i dun really understand. mr ingham say its veri impt in jc. and the asymtotes, whats the deal? why the sch muz force us learn jc stuff. so chim.

die sia, going to do my physics. something abt light. i still dunno what is reflection and how to draw the rays. tcher nv explain. everything is so weird.

bio is okay. i think its pretty much comprehensive. meiosis, mitosis and enzymes r quite easy.

chem still weird. cant remember the formulas. muz go meditate and mermorize hard.

p.s. i added music to my blog, but it sucks.

fourth entry

2005-02-02T20:26:00.000-08:00

juz realized tt tom muz hand up compo. wat to do now? havnt even started thinkg. die lah. i think i do it tom during recess. nv, mr ingham today give us a lot of qn to try, veri impt coz nxt nxt wk got ca test. i still dun understand e concept of discrimnant and h, k. but quiz very ez, i think i got correct but i anyhow do then last min then see answer how? if my ca test suck i will have to go tuition, poor me! MUZ study or else muz go tuition AND remedial! then the asymtotes thing, i still dun get it aft mediating; i muz mediate again durg cny. hope i can come up wif something. mr ingham bet his life tt sure come out in exam one. must lykly 5 marks. better understand.

tt all for today. i guess so. later got tons to do. too much slacking.

trd entry

2005-02-01T20:20:00.000-08:00

woke up late ( abt 6.00a.m). luckily i caught the last bus for school so i wasnt late 4 school. then i lost my skirt in p.e and then bawled my head off, so paiseh.... i was so scared and freaked out. nxt time should buy a lock to lock my stuff, eg wallet and hp in my bag. i am a very easily freak out person. tday mr kwok say nygh gonna link with the ministry. wah-lau i thought we are INDEPENDENT school, lyk that i as well go dunman high 2 yrs ago. now we got the CRIMINAL RECORD SYSTEM, what do they treat us 4, criminals, nxt time i grow up i muz write petition 4 this, so unfair. if u got black mark then u cant apply for scholoarship and bursary. i still want to go todai and uk schs to study one loh. stupid system.

yea, mr kwok say can wear home clothes for cny celebrations, but no minis, tubes, spags (lol), i think i gonna wear all blue or black. maybe i will go back to rss, my p-school, see how tcher react to me. nah, most likely i stay @ home to do quadratics inequalities. mr ingham always give a lot of hw. then got chinese compo and sui2 bi3. crap. i feel so stresssssssed. so much hw so little time. 2day still got to tutor sec2/3 pple from yuhua sec. i hope tt they dun give me trouble lyk the girl i used to tutor in p5.

so much for this entry.

p.s. hamasaki ayumi is cool!

second entry

2005-01-31T20:31:00.000-08:00

nice morning, kind of cloudy and dark @ bukit timah, bedok is damn cold at 5.20p.m. 2day nv bring bio UNGRADED assignment. also nv do moral edu sia, who cares? then tcher say must do what make toy thing 4 physics. hey i am a gal and gal dun do toys making k? not me anyway. but its fun loh, i wanna make something cool. nv bring thumbdrive, lucky got upload my logo design last week, or else mr shone will scold me.

my story rocks, i've been listening to it everyday. it's totally cool. muz buy it k, only like 17 buck, so cheap.

first entry

2005-01-31T05:18:00.000-08:00

today sucks. i 4got to bring graph paper and then cannot hand in work. surely kanna flogged by mrs yeo. then 4 piano lesson i was late, got scolded and then i basically flunk scales. she say if i dun improve she wont let me take exam. wah, lyk that waste my $$. she always like that.

sch sucked today. the new langarts tch weird weird one but okay. i cant believe we r still stuck on photo essays, so sian... today i saw this funny dance studio students dancing ballad, there's this guy, nice muscles and everything but a bit ugly looking. i think he's 16. i think he's a bit yin yang person cause no ordinary guy go ballad lesson. but he veri smart lei, any guys reading my blog, here's an advice: if u r pervertic, go sign up 4 ballad then u get to molest other ballerinas. tt guy today dunno do wat mating dance wif this galz, they r lyk ssoo close and intimate. ewww. i dunno why anyone will sign up lessons to be molested.

new year coming, yea! i think i m going to malaysia, so cool! then i can shop till drop and get ang baos!

hi

2005-01-29T21:03:00.000-08:00

new blog. nothing much but kinda weird layout